Will of Tripura

Anyone who has experienced the beauty of silence...also understands the presence of a will, which crafts the intricacies of the mundane life......

This "will" decides that part of life which not even the west has been able to organize or compartmentalize and which the east refers to as "naseeb"....

Whatever maybe the effort , the ability , there comes a point in the event of things when "naseeb" has to take your side.......
Till late my vacillating mind did not approve of either "naseeb" or disapprove of its existence.....

This has led finally to a dilemma which may finally culminate in a major lifestyle attitude......., in the sense that paths at this crossroad are spaced out too far to find a middle path.......

empirical evidence has failed .......i.e. I have tried walking down both of the paths and have realised that both of them behave differently in different circumstances.....

The "eastern" part of me insists that the path of vairagya "detached enjoyment" is the golden road.....in the sense......the individual should be like a lazy python , devouring whatever comes to him but never disturbing his own lethargy to find even the basic necessities of life.....
When for a few days , I took up this attitude towards my daily routine........I felt great peace...as there was nothing to plan for....nothing to look forward to, spontaneity went to the utmost extent ..as in every moment was enjoyed without thought of it's consequence.....
and ......."naseeb" took over......things unplanned and unsought for came into my hands......as if I was being rewarded for making the right choice......

"naseeb" is peculiar in the sense for when things fall into your hands they would be much more better and fulfilling than if sought for.......but......the "cloudy lining for this silver cloud" is answering questions which arise periodically questioning the goal of life...since spontaneity doesn't allow even the presence of the next instant....forget about the five year plan....
In interviews I was stumped when I was asked what do want to become in life.....what was my 5 year plan.....these questions cannot be put to the follower of any spiritual discipline......He is already that...what more planning could be done....the goal is to enjoy the spontaneity of every moment.......without taking to heart both the good as well as the not-so-good events of life....


Then things didn't go my way, I was denied oppurtunities, whatever I touched was doomed to a fatal finish...making me wonder what went wrong......again the presence of the "will"......I slowly realised that "naseeb" has only one motivation.....to exhaust whatever proclivities of the mind are present so that the individual experiences the peace of the undisturbed mind....


To understand the peace of an undisturbed mind, the mind has to be shown the presence of the"peace" first , to clear the misconception that such a state does not exist...to make the individual a believer....not by hearsay but by empirical practical experience........after soaking the individual in the peace , the "will" decides to disturb him.......and this is the most difficult phase........the individual has now become like the pupa in a cocoon...he doesn't want to make difficult choices.....he is happy in being docile......He wants no hand in changing himself......a belief that if "I am away from the world I will not be disturbed" takes root....


But the "will" , is all knowing....in fact it is present in each individual making them go through the rigmarole......but this is the point where major aspirants buckle.....
the misery does not end until the individual lets go of his conception that he will not mingle with the world......he has no option, the presence of a body and mind entails action.....not even the gods escape action.....now he has to learn to keep his mind peaceful even in times of turbulence.....which is what the "will" wants, a "peace" that has been earned and not bestowed....

For this to happen the grace of the "will" has to be withdrawn first , for if the child has to walk the mother has to let go......lot of the aspirants don't want to walk.....they will never walk...atleast not in this lifetime.......lot of them do walk....for they have truly felt the bliss of the "will".......its infuriating to be not so peaceful again...:D.....

When this agenda of the "will" is understood.........again the grace shines forth....the path to the goal has been set....now the aspirant will not meander in the grassy meadows of mind-pleasures.....and the "will" has achieved its purpose....life has gained a meaning.....as a sentence is meaningful only when its terminated by a full stop.